Girlfriend!

So back in June, I was meeting lots of new people, and one of them was a girl named April. Apparently we went to the same school and didn't even know it. We got to know each other, and after about a week or so we began dating, I think it was June 20th that we went on our first date. So it has been about a month and a half and we are doing really well. We seem to get along and click very well. And the ironic thing is we both have a difficult relationship with our mothers. We hang out at least 3-4 times a week, and we'll be seeing each other a lot more once school starts. She seems excited that I am going to be playing football. It feels good to have someone I can talk to and vent to, knowing that she will be able to help me. Not that my Dad doesn't help, but there are just some things that are better dealt with through her. So I'm hoping that this will last, but we all know how unpredicatble high school can be and I'm aware that anything can happen in these next few months. But one can hope for the best!

Darkness

This poem is the product of anger, hatred and a few hours alone in my room to dwell on things. While I won't say who it is about, when you read it, I'm sure youll know.

Why

why oh why

must you fill me with all your pains?

must you bring me to my knees

must you destroy all that is me?

is my heart so cold

that i havent felt

the lies youve told

what have I done to you?

does it compare to what

ive been through?

How can you say

ive hurt you?

ive been there, seen you fall

then turn around

and place the blame

on top of me

you never acccepted them

youve never seen

all your shames

will this continue?

the storm is coming

sweeping away

all there was

and all there is

Im done with all this pain

with all this shame

im going to rise

off my knees

from this storm

with a purpose

with a future

no more

will I fall

victim to all

of your lies and deciet

my eyes are open now

no rose colored shades

without me

theres no one left

to take the blame

to stop the flames

soon youll fall

unable to stand

crushed by it all

and then youll see

what its like

without me

Syndrome

I don't know why, but lately I have had a lot of emotions flowing through me lately, and I think I might have found a way to channel them. I was playing Xbox tonight and the feelings came into play and so I just stopped playing and started to write a song. Hmmm I wish I could sing though, bring some life to the lyrics, when I finish the lyrics I will post them up on here. maybe I can find someone to bring some life into them at some point.