Girlfriend!

So back in June, I was meeting lots of new people, and one of them was a girl named April. Apparently we went to the same school and didn't even know it. We got to know each other, and after about a week or so we began dating, I think it was June 20th that we went on our first date. So it has been about a month and a half and we are doing really well. We seem to get along and click very well. And the ironic thing is we both have a difficult relationship with our mothers. We hang out at least 3-4 times a week, and we'll be seeing each other a lot more once school starts. She seems excited that I am going to be playing football. It feels good to have someone I can talk to and vent to, knowing that she will be able to help me. Not that my Dad doesn't help, but there are just some things that are better dealt with through her. So I'm hoping that this will last, but we all know how unpredicatble high school can be and I'm aware that anything can happen in these next few months. But one can hope for the best!

Darkness

This poem is the product of anger, hatred and a few hours alone in my room to dwell on things. While I won't say who it is about, when you read it, I'm sure youll know.

Why

why oh why

must you fill me with all your pains?

must you bring me to my knees

must you destroy all that is me?

is my heart so cold

that i havent felt

the lies youve told

what have I done to you?

does it compare to what

ive been through?

How can you say

ive hurt you?

ive been there, seen you fall

then turn around

and place the blame

on top of me

you never acccepted them

youve never seen

all your shames

will this continue?

the storm is coming

sweeping away

all there was

and all there is

Im done with all this pain

with all this shame

im going to rise

off my knees

from this storm

with a purpose

with a future

no more

will I fall

victim to all

of your lies and deciet

my eyes are open now

no rose colored shades

without me

theres no one left

to take the blame

to stop the flames

soon youll fall

unable to stand

crushed by it all

and then youll see

what its like

without me

Syndrome

I don't know why, but lately I have had a lot of emotions flowing through me lately, and I think I might have found a way to channel them. I was playing Xbox tonight and the feelings came into play and so I just stopped playing and started to write a song. Hmmm I wish I could sing though, bring some life to the lyrics, when I finish the lyrics I will post them up on here. maybe I can find someone to bring some life into them at some point.

Karmel...

Karmel is probably the coolest cat that I have ever had. He scares the dog one minute, and runs away from it the next. And he seems to love stealing any dairy product that I happen to come across. Not to mention this tubby little cat likes to get fur all over all of my clothes.

But out of all the barnyard friends that we have accumulated at the house, this one is my favorite. The dog is too hyper and Kali is just plain mean!

The other thing about Karmel is the way he roams around the house. He's everywhere, and for a fatty he's pretty active. But as soon as someone he doesn't know comes around you can't find him.

But that's enough about Karmel for one blog. Hopefully I'll add more about my barnyard friends as time goes on

Camping!

Well I know it has been a while since I have updated my blog, mostly because I have gotten very lazy in the past few weeks, but I though that I would fill you in on some of the occurences since the last time I blogged.

And for Memorial Day weekend, my dad, Erin, and I went to some other part of CColorado for a camping trip. The place was pretty nice, somewhere on the Arkansas River, and the only thing that really sucked was the fact that there was rain everyday that we were there, and my tent got soaked two nights in a row.

But I did manage to finish stringing my lacrosse stick during the time, as you can see in the photo, it was very meticulous work, think in all it took me about 8 hours.

But other than some of the exhausting hikes and the Altitude sickness I got a couple of times, I had alot of fun up there in the mountains and I think we are planning to do it again sometime soon

Summer Agenda

1. Get a job
2. Complete Summer School
3. Get a tan
4. Get a girlfriend
5. Have fun
6. Pull 10 all-nighters
7. Start in lacrosse
8. Start in football
9. Finish book
10. Bench 180

Lacrosse

I signed up for lacrosse yesterday and so now for sure I will be playing the summer league and getting better. I also purchased some traditional mesh for my lacrosse stick. And I'll say right now that it is a pain in the behind to deal with. It's the best form of mesh, but requires a lot of maintenance and is not good in inclimate weather, the leather shrinks and becomes a bit brittle, But it also provides unmatchable power and control. So after i string it up, I'll let you know how it goes, but i hope it gives me more of an edge than I have now, because any little thing I can do will help my chance